the fourth quarter

i swear my son (and husband) think that the most opportune moment to ask me to do something for them is right when i sit or lay down to take a five minute break. i've gotten up and down allllll day. usually it would be nothing but since having this big belly, sore feet, and aching back, it's H. E. DOUBLE-L! i'm not trying to be a diva or anything, but sheesh -can someone please just cater to me for the next 7 weeks?! but being pregnant with a toddler and sick, working husband means no break for this mama!

by far THE worst pregnancy symptom this time around would have to be having loose ligaments. (i didn't even know that was a symptom of pregnancy because i never had it before.) i'm pretty sure my bones loosened as well, or at least that's what it feels like. my spine feels bent, my lower back is wacked out, my tale bone feels broken, and i'm pretty sure my left hip popped out of place. this baby is really taking a toll on my body. the first thing i'm doing after i get out of the hospital is going to the chiropractor and seeing a masseuse.

earlier tonight i was laying in bed taking a five and thinking to myself "i have no energy and i'm so sore. is it bedtime yet? how am i going to go through this for 7 more weeks?!" then thought "7 weeks? what am i going to do after the 7 weeks and i have two kids?!" dramatic much? yes.

but there's no looking back now. it's the fourth quarter and there's no room for whimps!

make time.

...and even if they can't 'find' time for you, they'll [ make ] time. life is much better when it's filled with lots of "i'm glad i did" rather than "i wish i had". 

point. blank.

big positive of being a stay-at-home mama=disneyland dates

there's only a month and a half until this baby is here so i thought i'd better put to use my disneyland pass before i'm too big to walk. last night my son and i went over for a couple hours to catch the parade and fireworks. i'm really going to miss these one-on-one times with my 'lil man. it was nice to just [ live in the moment ] with him and completely forget about cleaning, cooking, bills, and errands. there are negative and positives to being a stay-at-home mama but last night was definitely one of the big positives. 

we're definitely renewing our passes next year!

32 week update

...only 8 more weeks to go!

when i woke up this morning and stepped on the scale this was totally my reaction...

OH MY WEIGHT GAIN?! i swear no matter what i do or how healthy i eat my body just does not stay within the "recommended pregnancy weight gain scale". uuuugggggghhhhhh.

 

 here's the baby bump. i would have taken a real picture of myself, but the illusion of my shadow makes me look much skinnier. ha!

 it has really started to get to me. maybe it's just these prego hormones taking me on an emotional roller coaster because most of the time i'm fine but then i have my moments where i just want to cry (sometimes i do) and I get all moody. my husband doesn't do well with my pity parties, which is probably a good thing because it helps me snap out of it faster. i've just figured if i've lost all the baby weight (and some) the first time around i can do it again the second time. 

today i read the talk Of Regrets and Resolutions by President Uchtdorf from this last general conference that really put things back into perspective for me. the impression that stood out in my mind was:

i don't want to look back at this particular time in my life with regrets and wish i would have let myself be happier.

is gaining some extra weight really the end of the world? definitely NOT.
am i more than what it says on the scale? OF COURSE!
am i blessed? extremely.
am i healthy? YES.
what is my body actually doing? making a miracle -an actual human being!
isn't this what i wanted (to be pregnant)? YES, and i am more than grateful for it. 

...so why not just be happy [ all ] the time? 
  ok, no more pity parties for me.
[ i'm too blessed to be stressed ] 
i will enjoy the rest of this pregnancy journey and just be happy.
 

i guess i'll post a real updated pic of the baby bump...

this boy is finally popping out! according to the app What To Expect, he is about the size of a honeydew (4.5 lbs). i'm already always constantly out of breath and my tummy feels so tight so i don't understand how there could possibly be an more room for him to grow any bigger. 

my favorite craving is crushed ice. 

simple things such as getting up and down and bending over are starting to get difficult. 

as you can tell in the pic, i think it's time to give in and buy some maternity tops so that more than half the belly is covered.

i can't believe my baby boy is almost here! i'm so excited and ready to have another one! 

Batman craze!

since i pulled out safi boy's halloween costume for our ward's trunk-or-treat last friday, he has been batman everyday since. he wears his cape, belt, and mask e v e r y w h e r e -to the store, while he rides his scooter, when he watches his movies, to bed, and YES, even in the shower! (it's that serious!) 

he looks like the buffest 'lil man ever with his instant biceps and 300 abs!

...and what's even better than having one batman mask?

having TWO!

i told him to smile when i was taking this picture but he's [ so serious ] when he has his mask on.

i can't wait to take my 'lil guy trick-or-treating on wednesday. hopefully this year he understand the concept a little better and doesn't walk right into people's houses after they open their front doors. we'll have to see what funny stories i come back with this halloween.

insomnia!

it's 4 am....been up since 2...and will probably stay up untilllllll...the rest of the day. i don't know what it is about this pregnancy but i just don't sleep! catching up on people's lives through pinterest, instagram and facebook got boring (there's not really that much activity going on at this hour) so now i'm on here writing nonsense and thinking randomly.

i'm currently late-night morning snacking and this baby is rolling and kicking like crazy! i'm looking down and watching my belly jerk and jiggle every time he moves. he must really be diggin' this peanut butter and banana rollup. it seems like every time i take a bite of anything, he goes cray cray up hurr! i just did the math and realized this guy is going to be here in 2 1/2 months! where did time go?! i'm really loosing it these day, not only with the track of time but i also do weird things -like grab my husband the red rooster hot sauce when he asked for a bottle of water or i'll be picking up around our place and stop to fill up my son's sippy cup but instead of fill it up i through it away in the trash (with out even realizing it) and then spend 10 minutes looking for it while my son cries for "abble choose". (yes, i know that last sentence was the longest run on sentence. it's too early. who cares.) and what's even crazier is i almost got a puppy. could you image the madness of me already trying to potty train my stubborn son while potty training a dog at the same time?! that might send me over the edge and to the loony bin. anyways, i'm just going to blame these brain farts on the combination of my lack of sleep, pregnancy hormones, and fact that i have a crazy, almost-three-year-old. 

since this baby will be here before we know it, i better get started on my [ end of year bucket list ]. 

[  ] -take my son to the pumpkin patch

[  ] -trick-o-treating at Disneyland (maybe i'll get festive and dress up with my son...maybe.)

[  ] -redecorate our bedroom that i never decorated in the first place

[  ] -finish my son's baby book (before the next one gets here)

[  ] -"battle of the cupcakes" with my sisters at thanksgiving

[  ] -(maybe) find a new apartment

...more to be added once i'm fully awake.

here's a sneak people of the new fabric i got to make the new bedding for our bedroom. i can't wait to see how it turns out.

pop, pop, POPPIN' IT!

I  C A N ' T  W A I T  T O  G E T  M Y  B O D Y  B A C K ! ! !

...things don't fit the same anymore, my hips, thighs, and toosh feel, well -HUGE, my face looks like a blow fish, and i have a constant pain in my lower back/tail bone region (sorry, TMI?). every time i see my doctor she tells me i need to slow down on my eating. i gained 5 lbs last month and she asked me in surprise, "WHAT ARE YOU EATING?!" wth? really? what a friggin beezy! honestly, i thought i was doing to good, because my last pregnancy i literally ate everything and gained 60 lbs (and i'm nowhere near that right now)...so i'm pretty damn proud of myself this time around. my body isn't made like a match stick, so no matter what i do there's no way i'm only gaining 20 lbs my entire pregnancy. screw my doctor. i know my body better than she does. i lost all the baby weight and then some last pregnancy, so i'm pretty sure i can do it again. somehow my mom and all my aunties got smaller after each of their pregnancies -i'm hoping i inherited the same genes and i loose another 15 lbs from my pre-pregnancy weight. i know i sound so vain right now but i don't deal with all the prego changes so well.

anyways, as i start my third trimester working out has become harder. but i found a new routine that keeps my motivated... Z U M B A ! i wish i could go to an actual class instead, but my gym membership is still canceled. so youtube is just going to have to work for now. by the end of each workout i'm dripping in sweat and the best thing about it is it doesn't even feel like a workout because you're dancing the entire time. if you really want an intense workout i found this cray-cray latina chick whose workouts buuuuuuuurrrrn. [ try it out ] if you don't believe me. it's HI-larious trying to

 [ pop it ] when i have this huge belly in the front. (my equilibrium is so off!) good thing i'm doing it in the comfort of my own home -for my eyes only. ha!

i'm almost 28 weeks now. all this poppin' and booty shaking better keep my weight in check until this baby boy arrives.

oh, and there's my son. he dances sometimes with me but mostly just stands there and laughs at me. he thinks his mama is crazy!