Honestly...

[ a couple random thoughts about some random people/things ]

...to the person who posted a "lost cat" sign on the trails behind my house, i'm pretty sure your cat is long gone down some coyote's throat. sorry 'bout it.

...you can totally tell you used the editing tool that makes you look skinnier on a couple of your photos. the blurry edges around your gut and thighs gives it away. ha!

...i think i love Moko (the dog) more than i love you.

...you're actually not the sheezy, you're not cute, and you bug me every time you're around me.

...if your husband has absolutely no pics of you on his facebook and he is friends with a grip of hoochies, you should be worried.

...when we were kids and i got mad at you, i dunked your toothbrush in the toilet.

...sometimes after looking at all the cute outfits on pinterest, all i want to eat the next day are veggies and egg whites so i look just as cute in them. haha ok, that's going to have to wait til next year 

though.

...seeing all my family moving (or preparing to move) out of cali makes me cry/bawl. i miss all my family.

if you couldn't tell already, the crazy pregger hormones are in full effect!

preggers update

17 weeks today!

(almost halfway done)

[ what's new ]

-the baby bump is finally starting to show

-i already have to pop the button of my favorite jeans (so sad. but at least my thighs and booty still fit inside, somewhat.)

-sleeping on my stomach is starting to get uncomfortable

-i can feel baby moving now

-my ultrasound (where we'll be more sure of the sex) is in exactly two more weeks

[ things i want to do differently this pregnancy ]

-once i'm in my third trimester, have maternity/family pic done

-exercise up until i give birth and eat healthy. i told myself this time around i'm not going to eat everything in sight because i don't want to gain another 60 lbs. i'm hoping my weight gain stays 'all belly'  so my body bounces back faster -because loosing all the weight after is too hard.

-i'm definitely buying a comfy rocking chair and moby wrap for this baby

beach bums

it was a nice relaxing day with my sidekick, safi boy.

i'm going to enjoy these last couple months while i still have just [ one ].



my last hurrah

i love having babies (well, i guess i've only had one so i'm not a pro at it just yet) ok, i should rather say, i love the whole experience of having a brand new baby and being a mother, but i'm really not a big fan of the whole 'pregnancy phase'...that lasts for 40 weeks! some women LOVE it but i'm just like 'eh...' knowing that my body will totally be taken over for the next nine months to create an 8 lbs human in my uterus while also creating an additional 40 lbs in my thighs, butt, and face sounds a leedo craycray to me. my entire first trimester of this pregnancy i was sick...every single day. i thought 'hey, at least if i'm gonna be sick like this i'll come out of this trimester 10 lbs lighter'....nope! everyday i was standing over the toilet or a throw up bowl dry heaving and getting no relief (sorry, TMI?). and then i don't like those symptoms of preganacy that the baby books or doctors have no cure for, such as 'why do i have this disgusting taste in my mouth -like i've been sucking on dirty keys all day?' i'd brush my teeth 10 x day but nothing made it go away! anyways, my days are looking much brighter and the sickness and gross taste in my mouth are done for the most part.

one of the first things i thought when i found out i was preggers was 'dang, i won't be able to go riding again until...(as i counted on my fingers)...at least next spring?!!' (another thing i don't like about being pregnant -my limitation of physical activites) so right after i told my husband we were expecting i begged him to agree with me and let me go riding with my grandpa one last time before my tummy started showing. he wasn't too excited about the idea but he knew how much it meant to me...so we finally agreed on a decision together. a couple weeks ago i went up to utah and got as much riding in as i could for the few days that i was there. here's some pics...

cadence.

saddleing up.

early morning ride up the canyon with my bro through the ferns.

spence on izzy.

toilet paper tied to the saddle for the guy with allergies.

the best kind of therapy.

the view.

riding with my son.

 looks like he loves horsies like his mama, not daddy. proud mama rider here!

safi boy wanted to lead the horse too.

it was a nice. quick little getaway and i'm satisfied that i was able to have my last hurrah before this baby really starts getting big.

unexpected surprise

after 3+ weeks we're finally home and sleeping in our own bed. first thing i did when we got home was schedule my overdue prenatal doc appointment. i actually got an appointment sooner than i thought and went in yesterday. my dedicated, sweet hubby drove me to my appoinment right after he got off work with no sleep and waited in the waiting room with our son while i went in for a checkup. i didn't expect anything more than just hearing baby's heartbeat. being able to hear it and know that everything was baking right with the bun in the oven already made my day... but to my surprise my doctor ended up doing an ultrasound as well (even though they just told me i wasn't going to get one until another 2-4 weeks). when i saw baby's head and its feet and hands moving my heart just melted and i instantly fell in love! it's finally starting to hit me that there's actually a baby on the way. then the doc asked, "do you want to know what you're having?"

WHHHAAAAAATTTT?! i was not expecting to go into the doc's that day and find out what we're expecting, but i was more than happy to find out. i asked her to wait and if they wouldn't mind bringing my husband in so we could find out together. while the nurse went to go get him i started to get nervous, that excited nervous. i was SURE it was going to be a girl -but i didn't want my husband to be disappointed because he wanted a boy. and my husband was SURE it was a boy (becasue he 'willed' it)-but he didn't want to show his excitement if it was a boy because he knew how much i had already planned for a girl.

so once saf and our son came into the room the doctor sat back down and found the baby once again on the ultrasound. she said, "i just saw something...you guys ready to know what you're having?" right when she said "i just saw something" i was already thinking "greeeeeat, it's a boy...." then of course she said, "looks like you guys are having a boy" as she showed us the legs with a small tee-pee in the middle. the first thing i did was look down at my safi boy and think, 'greeeeeaat, another one of him?! i don't know if i can do that again?!'...and then i wanted to cry. "what??? a boy???"...is all i was repeatedly saying. my husband said "oh yeah!" in the most calmest, unexcited tone possible (and anyone who knows my husband knows how uncalm and excited he alwasy is) because he knew i was hoping for my baby girl. i layed there so confused because i was [ positive ] it was going to be a girl. i was so confused, and still am a little bit now. i guess she's not coming until a little further down the line. unless the doc was wrong...because i am only 16 weeks. i'm hoping by my next ultrasound in 3 weeks the nurse gets a better view and says "woops, looks like it's a baby girl." i guess we'll just have to wait and see. either way, girl or boy, i'll be more than happy. i just want a healthy baby. i'm excited to be a mommy again.

eh, not really the best picture...but there's the legs.