Friday, February 21, 2014

Fear of creating

It's the most re-DONK-ulous thing! ...I [ LOVE ] to create things, yet I have the [ biggest fear ] of doing so! Makes no sense, right? I have constantly suppressed my "creative urge" with excuses such as "I don't really know what I'm doing so why try" or "it's not going to be good enough or perfect enough" or "my work will never be as talented and brilliant as theirs". 

Whelp, no more of that none sense. I've been feeling creatively starved! I told myself this year will be different. 

Who cares if I don't know all the right techniques or even exactly what I'm doing -I'll make my own rules that align with what feels "best" for me. 

No more perfection. 

No more worrying about critiques or others opinions. Be vulnerable. 

No more excuses. 

Less thinking, more feeling. 

Just create and see where it takes me.

I've already started a couple projects this year and am starting to heal the creative side of me. I'll probably start sharing more of my creative journey here. 

Here's a pic of my latest work and they're going to keep coming...


Monday, February 10, 2014

33 weeks: we're in the last stretch now

Where has the time gone?! Sweats, yoga, and stretchy pants have now been hired full time and jeans have been laid off until may. In less than 2 more months and this little guy will be here. I think the more kids you have the faster each pregnancy goes. Now that my back pain has started and baby is starting to get heavy I just want it to be over but then at the same time I want time to slow down because I feel like I still need to get so much done before he gets here. I guess I better wash and fold all the 3 month onesies...because YES, somehow my babies skip the newborn/1 month sizes and come out as 3 month olds. But it's just like all the other pregnancies, you feel like you're not ready but really you're as ready as you'll ever be. 

My husband and I are excited though. Our little tribe of boys is growing. And honestly I'm a little scared too. Saf is working full time, going to school, we have a 1 yr old that doesn't even walk yet, we have little fam near by and no parents, and we're just trying to "make it" on our own. Somehow it all works out though....right? Lol