Friday, January 27, 2012

{ Hushed fears }

This morning I was signed up for a class -so last night I had to make my final decision as to whether or not I was going to go to school this semester. (Yes, I'm always leaving decisions to the very last minute) So I pulled out my Book of Mormon and started reading where I left off...

I read {{ Mosiah 23:28 }}"Therefore they hushed their fears, and began to cry unto the Lord..." I stopped what was doing --said a simple prayer asking whether or not I should take this class --then sat there quietly and pondered... 

Immediately after the impression came to me that I had already received my answer -and that I needed to stop fighting it. {{ I am not suppose to go to school this semester. }}Ya, I've been having these feelings of wanting to be just a full-time mommy but at the same time I fought with these feelings because it was my will to stick with my goal/dream of finishing school. I promised myself a while ago that no matter how long it took I would take at least take one class per semester -because I'm determined to reach my goal of getting that degree. So I guess my greatest fear of taking a semester off would be that it would become harder to go back the semester after...and that I'd be letting this goal/dream of mine slip away....

But after praying, I had this deep impression that Heavenly Father has something else planned for me in the near future. (wish I knew what!) And I know that he always compensates for what is lost. So if not now, school will still happen for me later or I will be blessed with something far greater. Even though it was hard for me to give up something (for the time being) that I had planned for myself, I felt peace after I made my final decision because I knew my will was aligned with the Lord's will. And I know that "No other success can compensate for failure in the home."-David O. Mckay

Oh, and being the over-emotional person I am -you know I cried a 'lil! HA! But it was cute because by then my son had walked into the room, wiped my tears away, grabbed my face and kissed his mama. My son's tender sweetness sealed the deal. I know I'm making the right decision.


  1. So sweet Haven. I love little Safi Boy, he is going to take care of you his whole life! And I'm pretty sure you're supposed to have a baby... it's your turn :)

  2. thanks ya, crossing my fingers I'm next :)

  3. thanks ya, crossing my fingers I'm next :)