{ quiet confidence }

It's usually...

...the couples who have to put it out there that they have the perfect relationship...actually have the most unhealthy one.

...those who scream and shout how much they hate drama...who are the instigators and biggest drama queens.

...those who claim to be the "realest"...are as fake as plastic.

...those who have to show how much they give...are the most selfish.

...those who give every person they meet their 'two cents' because they know it all...don't know jack squat.


Remember...

Talking with quiet confidence will always beat screaming with obvious insecurity.

{ Hushed fears }

This morning I was signed up for a class -so last night I had to make my final decision as to whether or not I was going to go to school this semester. (Yes, I'm always leaving decisions to the very last minute) So I pulled out my Book of Mormon and started reading where I left off...

I read {{ Mosiah 23:28 }}"Therefore they hushed their fears, and began to cry unto the Lord..." I stopped what was doing --said a simple prayer asking whether or not I should take this class --then sat there quietly and pondered... 

Immediately after the impression came to me that I had already received my answer -and that I needed to stop fighting it. {{ I am not suppose to go to school this semester. }}Ya, I've been having these feelings of wanting to be just a full-time mommy but at the same time I fought with these feelings because it was my will to stick with my goal/dream of finishing school. I promised myself a while ago that no matter how long it took I would take at least take one class per semester -because I'm determined to reach my goal of getting that degree. So I guess my greatest fear of taking a semester off would be that it would become harder to go back the semester after...and that I'd be letting this goal/dream of mine slip away....

But after praying, I had this deep impression that Heavenly Father has something else planned for me in the near future. (wish I knew what!) And I know that he always compensates for what is lost. So if not now, school will still happen for me later or I will be blessed with something far greater. Even though it was hard for me to give up something (for the time being) that I had planned for myself, I felt peace after I made my final decision because I knew my will was aligned with the Lord's will. And I know that "No other success can compensate for failure in the home."-David O. Mckay

Oh, and being the over-emotional person I am -you know I cried a 'lil! HA! But it was cute because by then my son had walked into the room, wiped my tears away, grabbed my face and kissed his mama. My son's tender sweetness sealed the deal. I know I'm making the right decision.

{ full-time mommy...or big kid }

School + work = my husband staying up for 22 hours straight!!!! {{CRAZY!!!}}

There's no way he could get a good (days) rest with us home and waking him up so my son and I needed a good excuse to get out of the house........DISNEYLAND PASSES! {{yayyer!}} So yesterday my son and I went on a mommy&son date and had a fabulous time! I love the age my son is at right now (but I guess I've been saying that about every age he's been..lol) Now he's starting to understand more so it's mucho fun to see him go bananas when we get in line for the Buzz Lightyear ride or when he meets any of the Disney characters in person. He's so mesmerized by them...probably because all his movie friends have come to real life. lawlz. I probably had just as much fun as him...or more.

 

 My son brings the kid out of me. All I want to do is play all day! The whole day I was thinking about what I am going to do about school...if I'm going to go back this semester or not. Honestly, right now all I want to do is be a full-time mommy. I want to spend my days going to Disneyland, playing Just Dance II on the Wii, painting the tub with colored shaving cream, watching movies, going to the beach, staying up late and sleeping in.... I've been justifying me not going back by telling myself, "He's only going to be young like this once"...right? I guess I have some big kid decisions to make in the next couple days.

{ rainy day }

rainy day + baby taking nap = quick sketches

{ I'm so tricky-tricky }

As BIG as my son is, he literally eats almost nothing...except for bananas, oatmeal/cereal, meat (occasionally), and anything sweet...oh ya, and chips! (thanks to my husband for getting him hooked on those) I've never been able to get him to eat any type of veggies..................except for today.

All this kid ever wants to do is drink. (hmmm...I wonder who he get's that from??) So I came up with the idea of smoothies! I put some frozen strawberries, bananas, mangoes, a handful of SPINACH, water, ice and VWUALLA! He downed it! It actually tasted pretty good too. (you couldn't even taste the spinach) Then I just put the extra smoothie into a popsicle maker for him to eat later.

Ha! He had no idea his mama just tainted his yummy drink with that "icky-green stuff". I'm so tricky-tricky!

{ Simple Things #3 }

If you want to speak to Heavenly Father -pray.

If you want Heavenly Father to speak to you -read the scriptures.

WITHOUT FAIL, I can always find all my answers in here. And it's simple- all I have to do is read and ponder.

{ part-time pet }

 My son and I chillin' with Moko...

Yes, I'm still buggin' my husband to let us get a "family pet" (aka dog) because my son loves animals...but I'm starting to give into the idea of settling for a "family goldfish"...at least for now. (FREAK! I hate apartments!) At least we have Moko to be our part-time pet. I know everyone who comes to my mom's house hates this dog but hey, he obeys me and fought off an Akita three times his size when it got to close to me...so he'll always be my sidekick who follows me around everywhere when I go to my mom's house. What can I say...I'm a pro with dogs! I watch Cesar Millan on the Dog Whisperer. "Be calm and assertive." lawlz.